On air!!

never ever cross in my mind ill be on air..it jus somthing that i believe i never did that..but..everything is seems not imposibble if we decide to do it n never look it back..

its been a while since i requested for it.n i never thought they will call me and play it for me..when they call me..i was watched tv n never expect this call. i dont noe what to say..wat to do..its so spontaneous..i merely forgot about that..about the songs..everything..

i asked my frend to tune in that channel.n they were like..'r u seriuos??its not a joke rite??' n i told them it wasnt..jus keep on listening..hahaha..

well i dedicated tht songs to my loveD one..n all the songs are bout my xpression towards him..even though we didnt make it together..but all the time that we have spent together, always be the precious moments to me..


u gv me roses..i let them to die..

What to Say?

i was think about her
about us..
what we gonna be..
then i open my eyes..
it was only just a dream

So I travel back
down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream.

Get it Right..

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin under
Just tryin to help out everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep makin a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right

Can I start again, with my fate again
Cause I can't go back and endure this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when you're good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
My best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take? Oooh
How many times will it take for me
To get it right, to get it right?

cerita kelmarin

kelmarin..aku g kl sbb ader interview kt sane..kire ni satu pengalaman br bg aku sbb ni first time aku g kl sorg2..rs mcm tourist yg sesat kt negare sendiri..ape aku leh ckp..sume pergerakkan aku..aku gune gerak hati je..kl aku rs mcm berat je..means jln tu salah la n sile la tuka direction anda..well alhamdulilah..aku slmat smpi kt mtpt yg sepatutnye on time..

after that, aku g pav..ni 1st time aku g tmpt tu..besar gil la..tp sayang aku lupe ambik sedangkan ader je kamere dlm beg aku..xde brg aku beli..jus cuci2 mate je..

later..pas dh puas cuti2 mate..aku pun balik..n semuenye baik2 je..
pengajaran yg aku dpt yela..jika anda tkut jgn tunjukkan anda tkt..nk2 kt tmpt mcm kl tu..kl jln tu wat je muke confident n org lain xkn leh tau sebenarnye kiter ni sesat..hahaha..n its work for me..

kerja o kerja..

rs begitu sekejap ms berlalu..tnpe aku sedar sudah hampir 5 bulan aku mengganggur..peluang tu pernah ader tp kerane sebab3 tertentu terpakse aku tolak..tp seandainye aku tau perkara seperti ni kn terjd sure aku trime post yg dulu..well perkare dh lepas xkn berulang lg..aku anggap tu bukan rezeki aku..rezeki aku kt tmpt lain agk nye..nk bengang ngn company tu pun xde gune dh..so aku ambik keputusan tuk cr je keje lain..bia la perjanjian antara aku ngn company tu berkubur kt situ..mls aku nk pk dh..
peh mmg payah nk cr keje skarang..nk2 bile kiter dh lame abis blaja..kene study dlu sebelum g interview..kene struggle to be the best among the best kl nk dpt keje yg bgus..kene bnyk bertanye ngn org2..kene bnyk sembang2 ngn member network yg pernah ader dulu..wah!!sedangkan pada hakikatnye aku ni xde la suke sgt nk berckp ngn org..rezeki tuk aku bekerje mmg xdtg bergolek..mmg payah r nk dpt..rs seperti d uji mentally..physically..emotionally..
ader je interview kene study balik..kl jauh dr umah kene pk nk g mcm ne tmpt tu..bole smpi ke x dlm ms yg dtetapkan..jln mn nk ikut..nk hadapi test2 yg dorg wat lg..aku dh mabuk dh ngn test2 tu sume..
well..kl xsusah tuk kiter dpt kan sesuatu tu mayb kiter x hargai sgt bende tu..aku hargai setiap pengalaman yg aku dpt time g interview nie..smpi st tahap aku dh xde rs pe3 terhadap interview dh..xde la nk rs neves semacam dh..rilek je..sempoi2..spanjang setahun due nie..idup aku seperti sukar n bnyk cabaran yg mendatang..
tp ini la yg dinamakan kehidupan n i like it..coz it makes me alive n i realise that every bad deeds that we have done will get the 'prize' right after we enjoy it.xpela..balasan d dunie xsetruk balasan kt akhirat..so lebih baik aku dhukum skarang dr kemudian hari..setiap detik aderla sgt bermakne bg aku.n aku xnk lepaskan moment indah ini..

hari ibu dan .....

hari ini hari ibu..Slmat hari ibu kepade sume ibu2 n bakal2 ibu..
sungguh bnyk pengorbanan yg telah mereke lakukan semate2 tuk membahagiakan keluarga mereke..tp xsume ibu itu baik..aku bernasib baik mempunyai seorg ibu yg open..n sentiase berade d sisi aku xkire d waktu susah o d waktu senang..
i luv u mom!!

selain arini ari ibu..arini genap 2 thn kisah sebuah jam tgn..masih segar dlm ingtan kisah jam tgn itu..kl terkenang rs cm kelakar pon ader..hahaha..
then aku pon melihat la jm tgn tersebut..then br aku sedar..tarikh kt jam tu ialah 4haribulan!!sedangkan arini dh 8 aribulan!..br aku teringt yg aku xtuka tarikh jam tu since bulan 2 lg..d mane aku pon dh lupe mcm ne nk tuka..hahaha..aderkah ni bermksud aku ni dh jd pelupe o dh semakin tue?hahaha.

PerLukaH?

Dulu ader sorg kwn aku ni sll 'menarik' golongan2 yg SM di mane aku xtau la kenape..tp skarang..aku lak yg terkene..n still xtau la kenape..

persoalan nye..perlukah tuk berbuat demikian? kenape tidak ader rs hormat pada manusie lain..tidak ader rs hormat pd perasaan org lain..sensitiviti seseorg..bukan sume bende bole main larong je..xcukup ngn tu..bole lak anggap kiter ni as kekasih gelap lak..huh..apekah?

aku rimas ngn manusie2 mcm nie..aku xnk attached ngn dorg tp manusie mcm nie la yg bnyk dlm idup aku..kkdang rs tensi bile perkare ni terjadi..aku cume nk menjalani kehidupan sperti biase je..tp kenape manusie jenis nie perlu ujud dlm idup aku..

aderkah kerana sikap berfikiran terbuka menyebab manusie seperti ni pk aku sebenarnye seorg yg terbuke? oh tidak same skali..kenali aku dulu sebelum membuat penilaian..mslh lain kan timbul seandainye aku xmengawal keadaan nie..

kiter mayb pk xde pe2..bese je..tp mulut org kiter xleh nk tutup..n dorg pon suke hati je nk ckp pe..nk wat spekulasi..kontroversi..aku xkaco idup org..tp kenape golongan ni perlu ader dlm idup aku..cukup2 la..pening dah..

AtUk..

setiap yg idup pasti kan pergi seandainye sudah sampai mase nye..segalenye sudah tertulis sejak dr azali lg..tidak ader sesaat kurang atau sedetik lebih..bile sudah sampi..maka pergila mereke kembali pada Tuhan mereke..

sudah seminggu atuk meninggalkan kami sume..kehilangan sungguh aku rasai sbb die tinggal bersame aku..bnyk sisa idup die bersame kami..tidak aku rs sekelumit terkilan kerane aku puas menjage nye..aku hanye mampu memberi tenage n kudrat aku dlm menjage mu..sungguh uzur keadaan nye sehingga aku xsanggup tuk melihat die seperti itu..

sewaktu aku kecil..die ader menjage aku..memberi aku mkn even aku ni bukan la cucu kesygan die..sesungguh nye aku rs seperti telah membalas pe jase yg pernah die berikan pada aku..

sungguh pun pada saat akhir nye aku tidak ader d sisi..tp die telah pergi ngn tenang..hingga kan tiada siape yg sedar pemergiannye..

semoge roh nye d cucuri rahmat dan d tempat kan d kalangan org yg beriman..

AlFatihah tuk atuk..