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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

itu mereke.aku lak?

tujuan aku wat post ni bukan la nk tuju kt sape3..skadar menceritakan kisah manusie dlm seharian kiter..

aderla sorg rkan aku bercerita tntg kisah cinta mereke..bes dgr cerite die..bukan sbb pe..sbb aku rs kisah die mcm penah berlaku dlm idup aku recently..sekuat mane pun cinte mereke..aku tetap tertanye..aderkah mereke mampu sehingge ke alam perkawenan..bukan aku doakan mereke tidak kekal..tp kisah seperti itu pernah berlaku dlm idup aku..mcm ne skali pun kiter cube pertahankan hubungan itu..tp andai kate tanpa restu pihak tertentu..sukar tuk kiter teruskan hubungan itu..xkire la syg mcm ne skali pun..jika tiada restu itu..maka..ucapkan la selamat tinggal di awal2 hari..supaye tidak merane kemudian hari nnt..
sll aku tgk org sekeling aku..mereke bersame2 org tersyg mereke..n mereke mendapat restu dr pihak itu..kkdang aku rs jeles ngn mereke2..yup sgt jeles..jeles sbb mereke bole bersame hapi2 tnpe pk mslah mcm nie..btul la ckp sorg kwn aku ni..mereke itu bukan nye tidak suke kt kiter..mereke cume xmau anak mereke berpisah dr mereke..
so..aku rs dh trjwb la segale persoalan yg pernah timbul dulu..
hmm biarla..perkare pun dh lepas..xusah dikenang2..wat sakit hati je..tp tu la..bile aku tgk kwn aku sorg nie..die pun nasib same mcm aku..bersabar je la yek..welcome to da club dude..

Sunday, March 28, 2010

aku lah sang mantan..

dulu aku kau puja
dulu aku kau sayang
dulu aku sang juara
yang selalu engkau cinta

kini roda telah berputar
kini aku kau hina
kini aku kau buang
jauh dari hidupmu
kini aku sengsara
roda memang telah berputar

mana janji manismu
mencintaiku sampai mati
kini engkau pun pergi
saat ku terpuruk sendiri

akulah sang mantan
akulah sang mantan

sakit teriris sepi
ketika cinta telah pergi

mana janji manismu
setia sampai aku mati
kini engkau pun pergi
saat ku jatuh dan sendiri

i need one..please give it to me!!

where to find it
where to get it
owh my God.
please help me..

i feel so demotivated lately..
i cant even focus whatever thing happen in life..
study especially.
personal life too..
where can i get the inspiration...
where can i get to bring back old time of mine..
where is the passion of mine
where is the motivator of mine..

i need to recover soon..
o
ill suffer...
demm..

Saturday, March 20, 2010

wajah baru!!

bosan ngn layout dulu..lalu aku tuka la ngn yg baru..
taaraaa!!!

ok x?

dlm hati ade cinta..

setelah sekian lame post kt sini mcm down je..
so pe kate wat post yg hapi lak..
sje je tulis post ni..
xde pun dlm hati ader cinta..
tp aku rs hapi arini..xtau la kenape..
mayb dh lame sakit hati kot.
so arini nk rs hapi lak..
mayb bile kiter dh maafkan seseorg itu..idup lebih tenang..
sbb tu kot hapi..hahaha..
dh bosan suke org..
dh letih menyayangi org..
mayb sebab tu kot kiter rs sakit hati bile die tingglkan kiter..
sbb xiklas ngn die kot..
tah la.
kiter xpect die bg blsan..so mmg xiklas la..
buat sesuatu sbb sesuatu..hahha
so bile die tidak jd mcm kiter nk..kiter marah...bengang..
tu pendapat aku la..
org lain..aku xsure..

ok la..nk g mkn la..
jumpe lg!!!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

now i noe y..

after being suffered from double-to-single crisis..
now i noe y a lot of gurls out there want to suicide.
its doesnt means that i want to..
but i noe what the feeling is all about.

yes..breaking up gives a lot tension towards gurls instead of man.
its because..the gurl is stupid..like me..
along a way of relationship..we, woman dedicate our life to them..
but up until one point..they jus walked away n pretend nothing was happen..
we accept them as they are..
we dont mix around wit other guys..
everything..
n the worst part is..
the unwanted baby come to this world..
luckily the worst part didnt happen to me..(still bole pk lagi kot.belum bengong lg)
thats y i said gurls are stupid..like me..hahahha
n thats y gurl prefer to suicide rather than stay alive..
they so angry..annoy..disappointed..shamed..
but..im sure..guys wont listen..
thats their nature..

so gurls..dont be so stupid to kill urself..try to be positive..n the most important is..there will sombody out there waiting for u..so jus live a life!!

ps: aku dh bosan dgr org ckp..TUTUP BUKU LAME..BUKA LA BUKU BARU..SENANG..ABIS CITER..(taip mmg senang la bang..cube wat..aku dh bnyk kali dgr ayat nie..rs mcm #$%^&* je ayat nie)

i dont believe you..






I don't mind it
I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set
And I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams
When you can't wake up
It looks like you've given up
You've had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You'll come around
Right?

Just don't stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don't mind at all

It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right,
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't believe you

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

just for women..

Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr. in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
No wonder men always want to be inside women!
Men were born between the legs of a woman, yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a woman....
Why?
BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME
Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now...
I never looked at it this way before:
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN ?
MEN tal illness
MEN strual cramps
MEN tal breakdown
MEN opause
GUY necologist
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's a
HISterectomy.

credit to: http://jomss.blogspot.com/2008/12/husband-of-year-awards.html

Saturday, March 13, 2010

ReHaB..

Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend

All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it

And all of a sudden
you went and left
I didn't know how to follow

It's like a shock
That spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me

Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame


And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking

I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When you're loveswept
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
That I was using you

But now that I know
That it's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta wean myself off of you

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

kuno sungguh...

st arini..aku g la sebuah bank di st tempat yg dirahsiekan lokasi nye..
masuk2 je aku dlm bank tu..
aku dh terpinge3..btul ke ni sebuah bank?
mn kaunter nye..yg aku nmpk just ATM machine n customer services counter..
nasib baik la ader staff ni tgur aku sbb die tgk aku dh mcm terpinge2 je kt situ..

"ye dik nk ape"..sapa staff tu..
"sy nk kuarkan duit gune buku.."aku jwb..
"ambik nombor lu then isi borg nie yek.."staff itu menjawab..
lantas staff itu menggali2 untuk mencari borang yg perlu aku isi..
setelah itu..ttbe aku terdengar nombor aku dipanggil..
skali lagi aku terpinge2..
korg tau sbb ape?
sbb aku xnmpk kt ne kaunter bank tu!!!

skali lg..pk guard ni tgur aku..
"adik naik atas yek..kaunter kt atas.."kate pk guard itu..
hahahha..giler malu aku..

lantas aku naik la ke atas..
nk wat urusan pengeluaran..
so aku bg la pe yg ptt kt abg tu (die staff bank tu)
pastu die soh aku sain sbb die nk comparekan sain aku ngn sain kt buku tu..
yg jd isu nye..sain tu aku dh ala2 lupe la sbb tu zaman aku sekolah dulu kot..
pe lagi..jenuh la aku try sain bnyk sampi abg tu puas hati..
smpi st tahap die dh bengang kot..
die anggap mesin scanner tu kt atas kaunter tu tunjuk kan aku sain tu mcm ne..
yg sengalnye..time die tunjuk tu sticker tu xkene kt scanner tu..so aku xnmpk la sain aku tu..
lntas abg tu marah2 aku..sbb aku xnmpk..
wei tolong la..dh la aku terpinge2 ngn tmpt ko..xilang lg perasaan tu ko serang lak aku ngn mrah2 ko.
paling aku rs geram giler time die nk bg balik buku aku tu..
die jus campak je kt kaunter tu tnpe ckp trime kasih o resit o muke senyum..
aku tunggu la kt kaunter tu..kot ader resit ke..ader yg tertinggal ke..ni x..

ko baget ko bgus sgt ke..
org lain pun penat juga..n aku mmg xbiase ngn tempat tu..
so slhkah aku tuk bersikap blur kat situ???
tobat la aku xnk dh g bank kuno macam tu..
ptt la abg tu duk kt atas je..kl duk kt customer services tu..mati la pelanggan yg dtg..
kt tmpt aku tinggl ader je bank ni..
tp xdela kuno plus sengal mcm kt tmpt nie..

Sunday, March 7, 2010

FESCO 2010

FESCO 2010 is back!!!
Uploaded some pics during fesco..
interesting..njoyed the dance..
plus with "drama swasta" in front of us...
hahahhaa

Taj college

USM

dh lupe campus mane..huhuh

Wailalak University

The performers..

drama di CH..

adela event smlm kt ch..
saje je g tgk.
bes gak..
org joget2..
yg syok..yg ala2 hindustan tu..
wiwit!!!
rs mcm nk menari gak time..
(jum cr lagu hindustan..later rumet masing2 xde..leh r joget..hahaa)

tp..
tgh syok2 tgk org joget2 tu..
ader lak drama tidak bersiri kt depan kiterorg..
mn xdrama nye..dh kiterorg terduduk kt kalangan G..
rs offended tgk aksi dorg..
geli sgt..
syg sungguh..muke dh hensem..macho..
tp..G..
siap ader kissing2..suap2 mkn..
xcukup ngn drama tu..ader lak yg aku rs leh jd pengkririk tetap la tuk event tu..
sume performance die duk komen..
props jatuh la..sanggul cicir la..kipas jatuh..
keterujaan die ckp smpi aku rs die nk jatuh r dr kerusi tu..
huhuuh..

ni gmbr yg telah diubah yg sempat di ambil smlm..selebihnye..xsanggup r nk ambik..



kl ader yg G terbaca post nie..harap korg kembali ke pangkal jln..bukan pe..bilangan lelaki dh makin pupus..so jgn la dtmbah kan lg kepupusan itu..kesian la kt ppuan mase kan dtg..huhuhu

Thursday, March 4, 2010

perempuan adalah insan pelik o istimewe?

bg aku la..ppuan ni insan istimewe..sgt istimewe..
tp mereke sll menjadi mangse2 dr menjadi pemangse..
mangse lelaki la..
mangse rogol la.
mcm2 la..
termasuk la menjadi mangse2 kutukan..kritikkan..aniaya..
bnyk sungguh..

xcukup ngn tu..
lelaki sll ckp ppuan ni pelik..
complicated..mcm2 la.
sebenarnye..ppuan jd mcm tu sbb dorg rs laki itu tidak paham mereke..
so dorg menjadi la protective skit..
tp bl bende ni berlaku..laki ckp ppuan emo..pelik2..xphm diri die la..
tp penah ke laki tu pk..
kenape ppuan tu jd mcm tu??

senang je nk tawan ppuan nie..
xperlu bg hadiah mahal2..
xperlu menjadi terlalu perfect..
ppuan nk perhatian..
kepahaman..kepercayaan..
n kesetiaan..
aku jamin la..kl laki berjaye wat mcm tu..
sure ppuan tu xlari dh..
tp..korg lelaki xwat mcm tu..
yg korg tau..korg rs dh wat terbaik..
yup mmg terbaik..tp tu tuk mate korg..
hati ppuan2 nie??

then bile dh lame2 kwn..
gaduh2..
laki ckp..kiter putus je la..
hahahha..
mudah nye ucap GOODBYE..
n mcm bese la..ppuan kn terpkse trime la..
kl ppuan..tgh marah ke..pns ke..still leh sejuk dlm mase 2 3 jam..
kl laki..jgn mimpi la..
kl laki pujuk..ppuan mudah je cair..
laki tu wat hal pun..ppuan tu leh trime baik..
kl ppuan tu ttbe beralih arh ke laki lain...
korg penah terpk x kenape?
cube korg ingt balik..kenape ppuan itu berubah??
aderkah korg memberi perhatian yg cukup?
aderkah korg yakin ngn ppuan itu?
aderkah korg percaye ppuan itu?
xpun..aderkah korg terlalu mengongkong mereke smpi mereke xde tmpt nk bernafas?
plus..korg xpect ppuan phm korg..tp ader x korg phm ppuan itu?
ader x korg cube phm ppuan itu?
dr kepahaman la lahirnye hormat..
tp bile sume itu ilang..
so baik putus je kot..

aku tulis bukan sbb aku ppuan je..
tp juge sbb nk share ngn org lain..
bahawe laki n ppuan
due due same pelik..same istimewe..

cume tu la..bile sorg ppuan cume memujuk kembali laki itu..
laki itu sure kn kuarkan kate2 yg wat ppuan itu mkn dlm..

sebenarnye...
ppuan tu xleh phm kenape laki wat kate2 macam tu..then terase offended la..so after that die wat la ayat2 ganas tuk laki itu..

laki tu sebenarnye..mencube menafikan keadaan sebenarnye sbb die xnk kenangan lalu berulang lagi..so cr terbaik tuk ppuan tu tingglkan die ialah..lukekan hati ppuan tu dlm2..supaye ppuan itu membenci die..

aku rs la..hal ni bole je settle..kl due due ckp perkare yg sebenarnye..berbincang itu sgt penting dlm ape3 hal pun..tp tu la..kl setakat sorg je nk..sorg lg xmo..aku rs baik xwat jumpe langsung..wat sakit hati je..hahahha

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

rindu pada saat itu..

kalau bole aku putarkan masa kebelakang..aku buat..
rindu saat time intern dulu..
saat bahagie aku dlm idup..
aku rindu umah..
mak ayah aku..
adik2 aku..
i just miss them..a lot..
time intern mcm2 aku dpt..
kebnykkan pengalaman kehidupan..
aku rindu saat itu..saat aku terpkse keluar dr kelompok selese aku slme nie..
saat aku terpkse mengadap org2 yg suke ngumpat2 blakang..
saat aku merempuh masuk plant yg aku rs aku xkn mungkin masuk lg..
mcm2 la yg aku rindu..
event2 yg aku join..
berkenalan ngn org bru..
kwn baru..
suasana baru..
aku rindu saat itu..
time intern gk la..
mengajar aku erti sebuah kehidupan..
slame ni mayb aku jus take for granted bout my life..
tp bile dh bercampur ngn org yg lebih dewase..
pikiran jd lain..
sgt2..membuatkan aku rs..aku perlu berubah..
wah!!! aku rindu saat itu..
aku rindu saat kiterorg lepak2 petang hari pas keje..
sembang2 kt pejabat...tah ape tah yg kiterorg ngarutkan tah..
rindu kt farah..haneem..meor..falaq..aaron..ong..
even xdela lame kenal..bt still..happening la kwn ngn korg..
kepada nm yg xde tu..xdela..xrpt..cume xberape masuk ngn jiwe r..
tp still aku rindu juga mereke2..
well time intern gk la aku merasai ape itu cinta..
rs mcm knk2 sek lak time tu..
ala..skadar suke je kt mamat tu..tp tu la..perasaan tu dtg time dh nk abis intern..so xleh la nk lame2..
kepde mmat tu..aku wish ko gudluck la tuk mase depan..kwn ngn ko mengajar aku..xsume laki itu baik..n xsume laki itu jhat..n usie xmenentukan kematangan seorg laki itu..hahah..
well i miss that moments..so sweet..
bnyk tul yg aku rindu ni..xlarat nk tulis dh..
ader gk yg xbes..tp xperlu nk tulis kt sini..tkt ader yg tersinggung lak..
well intern bnyk mengubah idup aku..pndangan aku terhadap kehidupan..
intern gak la menjadikan aku lebih mengenali sape itu farouk..
mcm die sebenarnye..
sory to say..but thats a true..
xmo citer lebih2..sbb nnt aku sakit hati..
xrindu la saat tu..aku benci ade la..
hahahha

well..live a life n grab as much as u can b4 u die!!!!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

aku pendam sebuah duka...

xtau la mcm ne nk mulekan..
aku xpndai bermadah2
menulis kata2 puitis..
apetah lg kepade insan yg aku rs xperlu aku bermadah2..
buang mase n tenaga je..

so ni pe yg aku rs..
terang..n telus..

idup single..
k fine..
mmg sadis la..plus ttkan..
tp aku cube la wat2 hapy..even xde la hapy sgt pun..
idup mcm bese je la..
k fine..
kkdang ader gk la aku teringt..terimbau kenangan lalu..
rindu la erti kate lain..
lantas aku menegur insan tersebut..
dgn harapan la..kiterorg besee je..
skali ambik ko..
die jwb..hahahha..rindu la tu
then bile aku layan je..
die trus wat ayat yg aku rs xbole bla..
yg wat aku rs mcm TERHINE giler2!!!
i felt offended u noe!!!
k fine..
silap aku la kot..
g bodoh2 tgur die..
sedar la wei..die dh xmo kt ko dah..
ko ni..nk kene lempang ke br sedar..
ko ni dh thap hine dh kat die..
yg ko terhegeh2 watpe kt die..(aku bermonolog dlaman)
k fine..
then..aku minta tlg skit..
ceh xbls..ader la kt setengah hari br balas..
tu pn ckp..
ala2 soh aku wat sendiri bende tu..
wei..kl aku mampu aku xingin la nk minta tlg ngn insan tersebut..
k fine..
kl ngn ppuan lain..laju je nk tlg..
kl ngn aku..
haram la...
dh kene perli2..br nk tlg
tu xiklas nm nye..
k fine..
aku sdar..aku xsebagus mcm insan tu..
sekadar insan sengal je kot..yg menumpang je kt bumi Allah nie..
kl xsuke skali pun..xperlu kot wat aku mcm nie..
ingt aku ni sampah ke?
k fine..
aku nk behenti menulis..
hati dh sakit..

Selepas TiGA bulan..

Wel..after 3months being single..a lot tings i learnt..yup.somtimes i feel lonely.dpress..seems like cant acept da reality..bt like he said.let it be should be..(mcm 2kot ayt die)..easy 2speak than action.haha..