Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came,
The dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

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dh lame xupdate blog nie..
bukan pe..xde pe nk citer pun..

nk cr keje..
xleh..
so duk umah jg umah jd suri umah..
BoSaN..

duk umah..
mkn..tido..
tp xgemuk2 gak..
hati xhapi kot..

so ash wats next?

setahun sudah berlalu

arini..
sudah setahun kiter berpisah
kamu bersame idup kamu..
aku bersame idup aku..

arini..
tidak same seperti ari itu..
dan ari2 yg lain.
walau sudah setahun berlalu..
aku masih di situ..

kata org..
sudahla..lupekan perkare yg lepas..
lepas tetap kan lepas..
xusah d kenang lagi..

itu kata org..
tp kata aku lain..
xde sp yg phm ape aku rs..
mungkin aku terlalu kompleks untuk org lain memahami aku..

aku xsuke ngn ape yg aku rs sekarang..
rs seperti tidak tertanggung rs nye..
rs seperti layang2 putus talinye..

aku ilang arah dlm kehidupan..
aku ilang percaya pd perhubungan..
aku ilang pertimbangan dlm perasaan..
seolah2 aku tiada lg perasaan dlm kehidupan ini..

aku cube tuk idup dgn bahagia..
tp bukan ni bahagia yg aku cr..
aku perlukan hati tuk trus hidup..
aku perlukan jiwa tuk terus bernafas d bumi Allah ini..
aku perlukan ms tuk aku mencari siape aku sebenarnye..
aku ingin pergi dan berganti hati..

mungkin juga kerna rs bersalah masih menghimpit jiwa
menyebabkan aku masih di sini..
walaupun aku tau
kiter xmungkin kan bersame lg..
kenyataan yg tidak pernah skali tuk terlintas kn terjadi
tp akhirnye..ia terjadi jua..

its takes time to love someone
but it takes 4ever to forget them..
n its true....